The train engineer of the Lac-Megantic disaster investigation is emotionally "devastated" by the tragic event, his lawyer says.

MONTREAL - The train engineer at the centre of the Lac-Megantic disaster investigation is emotionally "devastated" by the tragic event, his lawyer says.

Tom Harding has vanished from public sight and his lawyer's comments Tuesday shed some light on how he has responded to the tragedy.

Lawyer Thomas Walsh said his client has been staying at an undisclosed location in the province, on his advice, to avoid the constant barrage of journalists at his Eastern Townships home.

Walsh said he's hoping to get Harding some psychological help.

He said the last 10 days have been difficult for everyone affected by the train derailment — including his client, who was at the helm of the train hours before it destroyed part of Lac-Megantic.

"I used the word 'devastated' and I think that's one word that's applicable, but he's very, very low," Walsh said from his Sherbrooke, Que. offices.

"We're looking to organize something to see if he can meet with someone more professional."

Harding's role is a central question in ongoing investigations into the tragedy; his own company called him a hero one day, then announced the next that he had been suspended amid concerns about his role in the disaster.

He is also named as one of the defendants in an attempted class-action suit.

One key question is whether the veteran railman applied the appropriate number of hand-brakes before ending his shift for the night.

Walsh said Harding has been co-operating fully with authorities and has given his version to authorities investigating the event.

"He was interviewed for a long period of time by the Surete du Quebec (police) and by the safety investigators from Transport Canada last week," Walsh said.

The lawyer said Harding has not been arrested and hasn't been charged with any crime stemming from the accident.

As such, there are no legal conditions placed on his client.

Edward Burkhardt, the head of the rail company, had told reporters last week that his engineer was under "police control" as the subject of a criminal investigation.

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14 Reviews of me, the bees and cancer and a few words from me too.

MBC Trailer V3 from Jim Donovan on Vimeo.

me, the bees and cancer has two more showings Wed. at 7 and Thurs. at 9.30.  It has been a fine time for me to stretch my wings and get to listen and talk to strangers.  It has also garnered me 14 review so far and most are supportive of the movie, its content and direction and me too.    Enjoy!!!

Metro

Rating: 3/5

"...the film unfolds as a clear-eyed and even-handed assessment of the value of alternative medicine." - Adam Nayman

June 21-23, 2013

The Globe and Mail Online

Rating: 1/5

"That makes his film essentially an eccentric home movie promoting dubious alternative-medical advice." - Liam Lacey

June 21, 2013

http://www.theglobeandmail.com/arts/film/film-reviews/me-the-bees-and-cancer-essentially-an-eccentric-home-movie-about-alternative-medicine/article12734354/

NOW Toronto

Rating: 3/5

"Charming and eloquent, he finds fresh ways to communicate the confusion cancer causes and the inadequacy of established medicine." - Radheyan Simonpillai

June 20-27, 2013

http://www.nowtoronto.com/movies/story.cfm?content=193140

The Grid

Rating: 6/10

"Whether or not viewers share Board’s enthusiasm for this, they may still enjoy his company." - Jason Anderson

June 19, 2013

http://www.thegridto.com/culture/film/me-the-bees-and-cancer/

Film Corner with Greg Klymkiw

Rating: 3.5/5

"...sit back and prepare yourself for one of the strangest, creepiest documentaries you'll have seen in quite some time - and, for that matter, an illuminating work that will generate more questions and discussion." - Greg Klymkiw

June 23, 2013

http://klymkiwfilmcorner.blogspot.ca/2013/06/me-bees-and-cancer-review-by-greg.html

The Star

"While Board says some have called him brave and heroic, he brushes that off and talks about his therapy with typical good humour." - Linda Barnard

June 15, 2013

http://www.thestar.com/entertainment/movies/2013/06/15/toronto_documentary_about_bee_sting_therapy_cost_less_than_1000_to_make.html

Toronto Film Scene

"It’s entirely entertaining due to Board’s good-natured personality and enthusiasm for his subject matter, but it also works as a starter guide for anyone who’s ever considered looking at alternative forms of medicine." - Kristal Cooper

June 20, 2013

http://thetfs.ca/2013/06/21/review-me-the-bees-and-cancer/

Dork Shelf

"His treatments look painful and labour intensive, but the film places the focus squarely on staying positive, and there’s nothing at all wrong with that." - Andrew Parker

June 19, 2013

http://dorkshelf.com/2013/06/19/me-the-bees-and-cancer-review/

Press Plus 1

"Board introduces us to a counter-culture that prefers to be outside of the medical system and often with great results." - Kindah Mardam Bey

June 21, 2013

http://www.pressplus1.com/canadian-film-reviews/me-the-bees-and-cancer

Shannon Kelly

Rating: 3.5/5

"There is something quite valuable to be learned from this documentary. The utmost important thing he teaches us is to Question everything!" - Shannon Kelly

http://www.shannonnkelly.com/2012/10/15/1k-feature-film-challenge-review-me-the-bees-and-cancer/

Exclaim

Rating: 5/10

"It's certainly not essential viewing for everyone, but Board's bravery should prove a valuable case study for those looking to re-evaluate how we treat our flesh vessels." - Scott A. Gray

June 21, 2013

http://exclaim.ca/Reviews/Film/me_bees_cancer-directed_by_john_board_jim_donovan_hector_centeno

Northern Stars

"Cheerfully he self-administers up to 20 bee stings a day, a routine that’s as fascinating as it is painful to watch." - Wyndham Wise

June 20, 2013

http://www.northernstars.ca/2013/me_the_bees_and_cancer_review.html

The Film Reel

"...there’s no mistaking that John is a wonderful person, and he’s created a film from his heart, allowing us to take part in a journey that is difficult for him to face."

http://www.the-filmreel.com/2013/06/20/me-the-bees-and-cancer-2012-or-not-just-for-honey/

National Post

Rating: .5/4

"It’s a testament to the profound, sordid depths of the Internet that the promotional rap music video John Board sandwiches around his alternative therapy documentary hasn’t already gone viral." - David Berry

June 21, 13

http://arts.nationalpost.com/2013/06/21/this-week-in-documentaries-the-sheepdogs-go-from-the-swamp-to-the-spotlight-plus-b-b-king-bees-and-more/

trailer Me the bees and cancer.  http://vimeo.com/61531449

ABUSE

ABUSE is awesome for it creates an environment in the victim: this environment can be antagonistic and/or servile: the antagonistic type may be a fighter feeling he or she can outrun the abuser, and blame themselves when caught and the servile type may serve so as
to not get any punishments.

The abused carries both environments in their memory; flee, blame themselves or be servile. 

This becomes and is then the way the abused life is defined.

The person themselves become self abusing and this demonstrates itself clearly in self blame (low esteem) or perfectionism so the person feels safe. This impedes ones ability to fulfill a useful life. It does not have the energy or bravery to move beyond self safety; Often they will not be able to fulfill themselves for 'abuse of self' rules and every action obeys that rule.

Abuse of the child has a long arm but one can train the mind to look more lovingly at self and in that way move away from self abusing in all its manifestations. Being aware and responding over and over until a new and more fulfilling life can be accomplished.

Ill with Cancer and dealing with it.

Food - all organic, no bread, no dairy, little fruit(cancer loves sugar) no sugar.
Diet- Make almond milk drink with cacao and Xyla (Xylytol chemical sweetener)
Smoothie - make in the morning and drink all day.  Made with parsley, apple, bee pollen,
propolis, left over rice with quinoa, amarenth, bok choy, celery, chard, almond pulp, walnuts,
hazelnuts, Flax Oil, omega 3 oil  or variations of above.  Make about 4 cups and it gives me great energy and seems to keep me balanced.
Evening meal - fish or venison or moose or beef plus potato, carrot, mushrooms and onion with garlic.
Supplements - Vit Bs,B12 plus Folic acid C, D, E.  Magnesium and baking soda.
Homeopathy - Hyoscyamus Niger 1M, Rhopakraus 30C
Flower remedy - Pine, hornbeam, Elm, Gentian

I am about to embark on a regimin of Cannabis juice high in CBD and not THC taken an ounce or so three times a day.  Cannabinoids are in all of us and it is a system that becomes dysfunctional in some.  Every cancer cell has receptors for cannabinoids and if they enter they kill the cell.  I will see if that is true.  Great advantage having the offending lymph nodes under my arm and every morning when I shower I can feel them and the area around and tell if it is larger or smaller, more swollen or not.

My Supper last night

I am so proud of getting in touch with vegetables and juicing. It is so easy but difficult to make taste worthy. I even got to make some humus with my juicer. Great fun and I ate it all.And of course had my vitamins and antioxidants which I do now without thinking. Having cancer is not the most fun in the world but it makes me pay attention to what I am doing in so many ways, It is teaching me about me. Life is good.

Dehumanizing Mankind

Over the last few months I have become confused more and more about what kind of a world I am in. It feels like mankind is being thrown for a loop by disastrous events like Iraq, Egypt, flu, Economic meltdowns to cite a few. Somehow it lead me to reread 1984 by George Orwell who paints a dim picture of the future. It is chilling reading for in many places he paints the road we are on now. Reading the following paragraph I was shocked.

"in the general hardening of outlook that set in round about
1930, practices which had been long abandoned, in some
cases for hundreds of years—imprisonment without trial,
the use of war prisoners as slaves, public executions, torture
to extract confessions, the use of hostages, and the deportation
of whole populations—not only became common
again, but were tolerated and even defended by people who
considered themselves enlightened and progressive".
pg 258 1984 by George Orwell
http://www.planetebook.com/1984.

This is certainly true from where I stand as I was raised with much higher standards of freedom and caring. We were fighting it seemed for a peaceful and productive world. But now like '1984' we are continually at war and this feels more and more like it is part of the strategy of control and centralizing power. We are fed through the media no different than in 1984.

I feel we are being dehumanized by this and somehow finding the control fine as we have an easy life. But we are being driven from disaster to disaster and seem to be losing the personal control of our lives.

I was directed to the following documentary:
"How the free market ideas of economist Milton Friedman and the Chicago School fostered the impact of shock from the 1970s Pinochet regime in Chile to the Bush administration today.

"Internationally renowned author, journalist and syndicated columnist Naomi Klein on her new book "The Shock Doctrine: The Rise of Disaster Capitalism". Klein is best known for her book from the year 2000, the international bestseller "No Logo: Taking Aim at the Brand Bullies". It was called "A Movement Bible" by the New York Times referring to its incredible impact on the anti-globalization movement. In this extraordinary interview, Klein discusses the key ideas behind her concept of The Shock Doctrine and its importance as an alternate economic, social and political history of the last thirty years. She describes how the free market ideas of economist Milton Friedman and the Chicago School fostered the impact of shock from the 1970s Pinochet regime in Chile to the Bush administration today."

http://blip.tv/the-alcove-with-mark-molaro/naomi-klein-the-shock-doctrine-no-logo-author-feature-interview-526879
This doc is about 50 minutes long and riveting.

We have not yet arrived at the Orwellian world but it seems clear that we are heading in that general direction. For one example just look at the Security net that will surround North America when Canada and the US implement it. It will be as much a prison for those inside as it will be a defended island for those outside.

The US Congress or Senate have or had under discussion if they should make law that says the USA is continually at war. A clear move toward solidifying the disaster technique being used today.

This seems to be a disastrous road for humankind for it can only lead to reducing the very things that make us human; our humanity and replaces it with a group at the top who see people as slaves one way or another, to be managed in brutal ways. It is sadistic by design and Power is its goal. Absolute Power even over its own ranks.

It is insidious how Power grows until we deem it OK; an example is the Lotteries. On one hand the Power says it raises money for charities but the buyer is gambling and hoping for a big win. Should we encourage our population to resort to gambling to get ahead?

Controls over our choices and our rights to choose are already in place and more are coming as supplements get legislated against and natural and herbal remedies are being curtailed and outlawed. Our lives are being directed as much as possible from the outside.

In our favour we have communications and this gives mass rallying power when needed and opportunities to hunker down in our homes and communities and try more and more to be self reliant in every way: living within our means and not on bank loans of any kind. Become aware of who is in the driver's seat and are the intentions really good for both the mental and physical health of ourselves, our families and the community we live in. "1984" is not here yet.

I cannot seem to catch my breath
winds blowing hard against my every leaf.
There is not place outside to find a niche.
What should I feel when pummeled toward my death.

Five months ago I rose and saw a great adventure
before my eyes. An energy I love awoken
A goal to reach, a new rider to strut his stuff;
A dear friend, with really such a lively brain.

No easy task I undertook for age and confused temperament :
best just to say both are old and certainly I have a bent.
Some tinged with barbs as hard as barbs can be
but not with malice but with love laid where not all see

Not all saw that and so I grieve far more than most
My health has disappeared and cancers found me tasty
The rider now like me is fighting but far more risky.
The adventure taken back for others to be host.

And that is only part of all that tilts my bowler.
I struggle now to find the path to bring back health.
Years now I know good healing with herbs and homeopathy
That stand out in my mind gainst Chemo and XRay killer.

I listen to the folks I trust and place down all the questions
and sit with doctors who have figures to their benefit.
So I’ve changed my food and take supplements too
And mix up things that look like goo.

My last big chore is to give up the weed.
Addiction is a potent greedy freak
I’m coming close to the devil now
And soon I'll regain my strong know how.

And I sit alone in my dark third floor
With my solitaire and my mind out the door’
I can’t seem to find my feet on the floor
Just a mind caught nowhere and nowhere to go.

It’s the lot of my life to live in between
A mind in the wind with the leaves all akilter
But I try my best to stand up in the storm
I’m not much for quitting. I can take lots more.

TIme tells all!!!

Lymphoma! Hodgkin’s! the gentle worried woman said
And followed with, “But you are far from dead.”
She waited calmly to feel my first reply
It was not news to me, not really, I know not why.

Encouraged by my tranquil unaltered state
She went on to describe my newfound fate
Chemo, radiation, who knows what for sure
She has a friend who’s studied, knows the cure

Relax and wait until this new sage can examine
There is much time for this woe is not like famine
It sits inside my right armpit that finds me
A royal cushion ready to move throughout its sea.

The news has passed to all who counsel this happy soul
And I, the keeper, shuttered eyes like some forest troll
Will wait to hear the sure fire paths
Of all the pundits who can kill this wrath.

Soon, quite soon I’ll choose the allies in this game
Will I choose right or wrong? Will I ever be the same.
Time is time and moves at its own pace.
There is always an end in the human race.

Karma plays its hand and always will
Tomorrow is day one of our fine film
Hello October is all ready, the first shot due.
My work some done, will now begin anew.

Doctor surgeon save me now before I come to greater harm.
Take the tests; more ultrasound, the needle biopsy too.
You felt the lumps, called for a mammogram and last of all
yes last of all, the Kat scan to see me through and through.

My weight loss lends to make me know something is amiss
Is it infection or is it cancer is what you must decide.
And then its up to me to hear the path you wish to take
And me decide just how to move what vehicle I’ll ride.

Will I say yes if you say go the route of surgery?
Take the chemo, radiation just like most would do.
Or should I go a natural way, right food and actions clear
And know that path is open and it too can be true..

There are no guarantees in life.
No secret ways of knowing.
But I am master of my path.
Of which way I’ll be going.

We mortals grasp at every straw, maybe it is nothing at all,
The Cat scan says my heart is fine so’re my lungs and liver
Just the armpit finds me doc and makes me a strong believer
Except I don’t pray or maybe I do a sinner hoping to save a fall.

Still more tests to go and they will tell me more
so I live on the edge of an apartment ledge
hoping the wind will be just a breeze
and the worst I will have is the occasional sneeze.

I’ll stay off the coffee and drink ginger tea
Alter the foods that go into me
Guard my body with a mind more sane
Think better thoughts and take care of me.




A leaf needs no strength to live through a storm
It is only a matter of relaxing to the blow.
So it is with all things come to pass
It is not what but how we bend gently.

Yes the biopsy is next with the mammogram and the ultrasound.
There is not telling what the seed of the discomfort is,
enough to know it rests isolated in its space
bigger yes, but not invasive to other parts as yet.

The herbalist said that after diagnosis she can tell
how to fit into a healing shell.
So all wait patiently to hear the longish name,
translated into plants to end the game.



Calmness, grace and inner strength

A way of being to enfold the form

As simple as breathing out

Life is what its all about.

This fim was sent to me by Dee Nicholson press officer for "Canadians for Health Freedom" - http://canadiansforhealthfreedom.wordpress.com/

The film is entirely about how sovereignty is being removed in Canada, and how it is affecting our choices.
You can view it at:
http://vimeo.com/13024940
Enjoy!
Dee

After watching this and the powerful and thoughtful men who did their best to protect our sovereignty; I think it is time for a new political party.

"PEOPLES SOVEREIGN PARTY OF CANADA"

PSPC

Bring Canada Home

WHAT DO YOU THINK? PLEASE WRITE AND TELL ME.

The cost of safety for G8 and G 20

The federal government put the G20 in the middle of Toronto and the cost is below, almost 1 billion dollars. What a waste of money this is when you consider the poor people in Canada and how better to use this money. It is irresponsible to do this and shows a complete disrespect for the people of the country. But it does show the ego of the PM and his need to look big.



OTTAWA (AFP) - Canada has boosted its budget for security costs for upcoming G8 and G20 summits in and around Toronto next month, with some estimates approaching a billion dollars, officials said.The costs were original estimated at 179 million Canadian dollars, but an additional 654 million Canadian dollars was requested Tuesday, for a total of 833 million Canadian dollars (780 million US).

The figures were outlined in a document presented to parliament. They include 321.5 million Canadian dollars for federal police, 262.6 million for the public safety department, 63.1 million for the military and 6.7 million for other agencies.But officials said the costs could be even higher than requested so far.
"Based on a medium threat assessment, we're budgeting up to 930 million (Canadian) dollars," Christopher McCluskey, spokesman for Public Safety Minister Vic Toews, told AFP.

"It costs what it costs," he said. "We're prepared as hosts to respond to any possible threat and ensure all of the delegates' safety."

The Group of Eight summit is to take place in Huntsville in the Muskoka region north of Toronto on June 25-26 and be immediately followed by a G20 summit in Toronto on June 26-27.

FEAR - a tool to control people.

Living in Toronto I am afraid to go to Iraq for a holiday. Why?
My first reason is I am afraid I might be killed by terrorists. If I actually lived in Iraq I would be living by the minute with this fear. Fear is what terrorists want; people afraid give way and do what the terrorist wants them to do.

As I watch the media today I am bombarded with fears. Told to be afraid. Told to be cautious. I follow directions through fear and fear mongering by money masters and mortgage lenders, and GMO food creators to save the world from starving and WHO creating pandemics and demanding Flu vaccines for the world or we will be at risk.
All are presented by promoting fear if we do not obey.

Fear is exported by our Governments who are broke and need more taxes but give less services. In the end it is democracy that needs Capitalism and a consumer public to pay for itself. The needs for profit encouraging consumer overindulgence to earn profits for shareholders. We think for a while we are in the cat bird seat with everything we want and now we realize there is a price to pay. Money is being made that promotes this. Fear about no money and poverty keeps us in line.

In responding to the fear of terrorism, Americans and much of the world's people are losing personal rights through "Patriot" like laws that limit personal freedoms and one of those rights is the freedom of choice.


At every major Corporation and in Governments there is stategy afoot to limit our freedom of choice through all media including the internet. A consistent negative published point of view is trying to restrict vitamins, organic foods, medication to follow their dictates by law. Alternates will become illegal.


As we join in larger groups like Nafta and G8 and G20 countries become subject to outside judgments that will be binding on how we the people will respond. A small group of appointed executives somewhere in the world will be able to dictate to us what we must do.

Our citizens will be no longer free to choose.

Fear disorients people and adds huge stress to every life.


Fear mongering leads to control. Obey and be safe is the mantra.

Whether it is the Terrorist or the Government or the International Corporations, we are being continually stressed to follow their edicts and do what we are told or democracy and our way of life will fail.

It is dangerous if we do not resist this movement toward a new kind of dictatorship; one overseen by the Corporate management at an International level and driven by excessive profits at people's expense.